Eyes On Me

Five Years Ago, Five Years Later.

2009-03-25T05:09:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it’s easier to write if you let someone else start and you offer your reply. Anyway, I’m kind of shy that I’d be telling you portion of my life five years ago and as far as I couldn’t forget, I had some kind of tormenting and pathetic experience.

Okay, time to be a bit more serious: My pages from the past five years? OMG! It makes me cringe, but there are a few things that I learned and there might even be a smidgen of style starting to show up.

Five years ago, that’s when I was 14 years old, have been so not easy for me to get along with other people because I was real shy and ashamed of myself, of my physical appearance.LOL! I was too short nigga with pimples and had really short hair. Just imagine how ugly I was. I often got tease by my asshole classmates. Because of this, I got my self-esteem low; I rarely participated in class and joined any curricular activities. I was afraid when people are looking at me from head to toe.

I’ve even been patiently working my way through those verbal abuses. Actually I’ve worked my way going to the gym during summer. I was so desperate to lose weight. And yeah! I lost weight. . I got lighter complexion sponsored by Belo Medical Group. haha! and had straight long hair. Its kinda bit of a lighter complexion than before. From then on, I started to talk to people, hangout, and party with them like hell. I started to boost my confidence and feeling dang good about it; I started to commit myself with a lot of school activities and had the chance to groove. LOL! . One thing that really made me boost my self confidence was when I joined the Charismatic Community in our school. I learned to deal with a lot of people with different experiences in life. I also had learn to be able to step back, very quietly, yet very intensely and not act too impulsively or overwhelmingly and learn to become very patient and really be consciously aware of what’s happening around me before I acted. There was an absolute awareness, a conscious awareness of what’s happening around me. I became aware of a sense of, that there’s a need to taken into account and so therefore tread softly, tread carefully, because wherever you go, it’s got to give you a result. All the way through this, I considered myself as more responsible and maybe more mature than I thought in the past years. The experiences changed my life more than I ever imagined it would be.

After having some kind of summon up of my experiences in the past five years, I know or at least I believe that there will be lots of changes and new experiences in the next more five years. Well, I can just imagine myself how fit and sexy I am at the age of 24 years old. I am so conscious of my health, so particular of the food intakes. At this age, I already manage my own business – clothesline boutiques, cakes and pastries coffee shop. However, being a part of the Charismatic community has really been a great blessing to me. Even if I see myself busy with my business and all, I'd still spend time serving the church. And I believe that this is where all the strength that I have always had and the resilience that I will always have and need to go on life. I see myself as open minded and someone who’s easy to approach and deal with lots of people in different walks of life.

That’s how I was and would be five years ago and five years later.

Who Do You Think I Am?

2009-03-24T02:01:00.000-07:00

“Tell Me About Yourself “ – Again. Isn't it difficult when someone asks you that question? I always get stumped. I always blabber something generic just to make sure I give out an answer. I always hated answering those stuffs.

But Anyways, I am Ainee Adolfo Jaluag, you can call me "Ainz" for short.

19 years old (when i wrote this)
born in August 29, 1989,
currently residing at Cabancalan, Mandaue City Cebu.

For 19 years of being with myself, I still don't know much. I’ve certainly learned a lot. But I’m kind of sure other people can describe me better than I could in a million years. How about you? Do you know yourself well?

Me? I certainly hope so.! Ok Here goes

I guess I’m nice, sweet and one-of-a-kind creature. Sometimes, I am a person who won’t say much but when I talk and say something, I mean it. I have a strong need for freedom and self-expression. I love adventure, travel, and exploration. I am frank & honest, sometimes brutally so. Well known for being social active. I am somewhat of a perfectionist in most areas. I pay much attention to details. I prefer to behave in a no conventional manner with blunt outspokenness. On first glance you think I'm lackluster and gauche, but come to find out from all my friends, I'm quite the opposite: Fun-loving, approachable, and astute shopaholic. Overly sensitive. Perfectionist. Creative. Organized. Messy. Self-driven. Lazy. Random. Blatantly honest. Dependable. Considerate. Giving. Observant. Independent. Flexible. I also like the color purple and green. I like to pray. I like having long hair. I like cheese. I don't like spiders and roaches. I like babies. I like sweets, yes, chocolates! I like to read. I like to pick the cherries out of the fruit salad. I’m fascinated with weird things. I like the beach and the sun. I care about what other people actually think of me. I like to dress up. I love fashion. I love photography. I think I’m good at a lot of things but I never master any. I’m confused most of the time. I always say I’m fat. I know I’m pretty on some days. I like to make people happy. I love to wear a smile. I love to cook. I like talking to people. I like comfortable silence. I like to go to church. I like to sing. I like money. I like to shop.

I love these faces.

my family

My Friends

high school friends

college kids

I’m stubborn. I like to exclaim when I’m happy. I’m conscious about how I look. I can get super hyper. I talk a lot. I don’t like to stay mum for hours and have a hard time getting back to my usual chatty self. I like listening to other people's life stories. I like to over analyze.

Regardless of things mentioned above, there are also things that even people very close to me don’t know that I am coward, I think people see me as a person who has a strong persona; I am not unnecessarily swayed by emotions and even if sentiments were running high, I can keep a cool head to weigh my approach; I am not the kind who likes to cuddle and make a public display of affection but can be quite romantic in my own way. I appreciate simple ways like sending a never-ending stream of flowers and going to romantic dinners at quiet and elegant places. Hahaha! “mura'g kOrek”nuh?..

But hey! I think I’m right and I don't want to be proven wrong

Earliest memory? hahaha! That seems to be a funny question. Ok. One thing I couldn’t forget of and couldn’t get off my mind back when I was 10 years old. I was invited by a friend to her house. We were neighbors and we hangout a lot. She had shown me a lot of x-rated movies Hahaha! Oh yes! That was also the first time I encountered a flavored balloon - “condom”. A lot of condoms with different flavors!!! Hahaha! But oops! Nothing happened. I had no idea what that was but I had learned a lot though.Hahaha! Well, I’d rather keep it to myself though.

I can’t think of any people who’ve always enlightened me with their counsels. She’s no other than my buddy and my best friend,

my grandma.

When I was a lot younger than I am now, grandma’s keep on telling me “dai, ayaw usa gyud pag patintal sa mga laki ha. Tiwas lang gyud usa ug skwela.” That’s always been the line that I’ve heard from her until now, even when I get to college. That’s the sweetest line I couldn’t forget of though. Unfortunately, I had a relationship back when I was in high school. Just another “puppy love” or at least I think it was just a kind of a “baby mutual understanding”. Hahaha! And yeah, she never knew about it. I was kind of playing “hide and seek” with her. However, when I got to college, I was able to make use of it or at least treasured back that line again. Somehow I’m trying to stick with that line that my grandma has been telling me until I can finish my degree. I want to make my grandma proud of me.

What makes a person ideal? Alike with all other persons, I think I had my own perceptions of what an ideal person truly is or someway the people I idealized most –

My parents.

At one point or another in of my child hood or even my early teenage years I complain about how my parents are raising me. I really hated the fact that my parents just left me or I was being taken care of a “yaya” or to anyone in the house every time they go to work. As ‘lil kid, I had thought of bad things like my parents didn’t love me, they don’t want me to be with them, they hated me so much, coz I was always been scolded by them, stuffs like that ba. So I grew up like I hated my parents. I mean like I couldn’t get closer to them. It was really like hell for me, kind of there’s always war among us every time I saw them. Hahaha! (“wala’y buot pa man”… ) But when I started to internalize and understand how the world works. Hahaha, I mean when I started to understand things the way they were before and the way it should be now, I realized that there’s no other person I idealized too much – My parents.I know they are not perfect. But one thing I knew and very sure of is that they are my parents, two people who are committed not only to each other but also to us. And have shared love in unconditional, that they have to sacrifice for us all the way to give us the “close to perfect” life that we deserve to have and the tools we need to have to be smart, loving, God-fearing, family-oriented and successful people today and in the future.

I’ve always wondered if my life could be a movie or
a Japanese series

– I want love story. Could it be real? I hope so. Haha! Well, I want the hot like hell boyfriend

Hayami Mokomichi

as my prince charming. Haha! I wanted it to be where I can create or programmed my own lover, someone’s perfectly programmed to be devoted and completely loyal to me, and should declare his love for me out of fear. I wanted it to be that way because I know I deserve to be happy, to be loved and not being hurt by any unworthy man.

The Human Brain

2009-03-24T01:38:00.000-07:00

In our Psychology class we watched a film from the Discovery Channel about our Central Nervous System, particularly, The Brain - its parts, functions and how it respond to the environment. The brain is the seat of our mental faculties. It assumes vital functions by influencing heart rate, body temperature, breathing, etc., as well as performing the so-called “higher functions”, such as language, reasoning and consciousness. This organ includes two hemispheres, the left and the right hemispheres, with each further divided into four lobes: The occipital, parietal, temporal and frontal. Even though it plays a fundamental role, the brain remains one single part of a whole organism. It is continually changing – developing – throughout life.

The brain is active throughout every day, even as we sleep, but we rarely, if ever, stop to consider that our thoughts, actions, and perceptions are the outcome of several million signals exchanged among our nerve cells. The demands of everyday life leave little time or reason to think about how we do or what we do. Yet at any given moment innumerable and unnoticeable communications are occurring within our central nervous system like when we wake in the morning and shake off the impressions of a dream; when we go out for a walk, recognize a friend, and cross the street to say hello. The works of the nervous system convey perceptions and states of mind that we can recognize and put a name to, and they make it possible for us to exchange signals, through language and in other forms, with other beings like ourselves.

The brain is such an efficient “processor of information” that most of the time we do not realize the importance of its task. Usually only a disruption of the nervous system, through disease or injury or inherited pre-disposition—calls our attention to the brain's myriad functions. From a further research, Neuroscientists have well established that the brain has a highly robust and well-developed capacity to change in response to environmental demands. Thus, our brain is biologically ready to acquire language right from the very start of our lives; the process of language acquisition needs the means of experience. There is an opposite relationship between age and the effectiveness of learning many aspects of language – normally, the younger the age of exposure, the more successful the learning – and neuroscience has started to identify how the brain processes language differently among young children compared with more mature people.

From this point of view, I can conclude that the brain is continually changing – developing – throughout life. This development is guided by both biological and experience. Genetic tendencies interact with experience to determine the structure and function of the brain at a given point in time. Because of this continuous interaction, each brain is unique. Though there is a wide range of individual differences in brain development, the brain has age-related characteristics that can have important consequences for learning. This integration takes form in structural modifications within the brain.

I.E ON TOUR

2009-03-20T21:25:00.000-07:00

At 6:30 in the morning of February 21, 2009,
I began to prepare for the day and was very excited.

I knew that assembly time at school was at 6:30am but I took advantage of the time since I wanted to take a ride with my dad going to the first place. Haha.
Having done what I needed to do, as I checked on the clock,

I gasped when I saw that it was exactly 7:45, my parents were already waiting for me in the car. Crap! Dad’s work is at 8:00am. What the hell am I waiting for, I asked myself, Christmas?

So half-running and walking I hurried back to the car and my mom was staring at me with questioning eyes.

Well, duh, of course you saw me before! I obviously had to get back because I forgot something –camera! ! I can’t leave the house without it.

Paul Yu Corporation. in Mepz II, Basak Lapu-Lapu City was the first stop.

I reached the place first ‘coz I just took a ride with my dad since it is also the company where he’s connected with. For all these years, it was my first time to visit my dad’s office, and had the chance to see his showroom with his very spectacular and very artistic designs.

I’ve been to that place, and just stayed at the car every time we go there though. It was so overwhelming when my dad introduced me to those Taiwanese ladies giving some compliments. There was also this lady I’ve met, she’s my dad’s co-designer when he was still connected to the other company way back when I was in grade school and until now they are still colleague, reminding me of how things went through ten years ago when she met me at my uncle’s wedding. Oh Crap! That was so shame and so funny reminiscing those childish days. Hahaha! I think she couldn’t imagine how big I have changed.
My offense? Of course not! I’d rather keep it to myself though. Hahaha!

Anyway, it was a fun experience. I enjoyed a lot wandering around the place, the production, the showroom and all

. They were also very accommodating to us. They even prepared coke for us after the long and very tired walk we had.

at the canteen with shalee, Mikyu, Aimee, Leslie and Me. stopping over for a drink :)

I also enjoyed my job being an assistant guide to my classmates. And yeah! It was like I was one of the employees or I would say the owner. Hahaha! Jokes! Naaah! Of course not! I was just a “fan” and a “proud daughter” showing to them my dad’s creative designs. And I’m sure you‘d feel the same way if you were on my shoe. Wouldn’t you?! Yes, you would!!!

Father&daughter.

Our next stop was Shemberg Corporation..

We reached the place around 10:30am. We were so late. The company was expecting us to be there as early as it should. So when we entered their conference room or wherever we was, when the speaker arrived with a very nuts face and scolded everyone for being so late, WOW!

I feel so tired and restless. I mean I don’t feel like listening to him. Actually it wasn’t really our fault after all. Blamed it on to the bus drivers for not following the said time!! Despite of what had happened, I’ve learned from it though, of how time management is very important to us especially when we already go to work and as IE’s we should be on time. Right? Jeez. How pathetic we were. Hahaha! Shame on us! Hahaha. :-P anyways, that’s all for Shemberg Corporation.

So after we had that awful visit, its lunch time!

So we thought of stopping over at Danao’s nearby sea shore to have our lunch. The food was great. After we had lunch, we get off the bus and had a minute of walk along the shore, taking pictures of the wonderful place.

our food. yummy fried chicken and pork chop.

wow! Lester's really hungry huh!

The sea shore.

Picture Taking.

buying green mangoes.

i don't know these youngsters but they want me to take pictures of them. so i took.

ME.

After an hour and more of break, everybody in the bus was sleepy. I took candid photos of people sleeping.

i first caught my seatmate, Paul.

Sir Donn.

Sir Ritchie.

Classmates

We went to our last two companies owned by the Ong Kin King Group of Companies, The Danao Paper Mill and the Durano Sugar Mill. It was a so-so experience. I feel sad though, coz the plant was not operating when we went there and most of the students didn’t have the chance to see how paper is produced. Good for me because I’ve been to that plant before with my group mates in IP Lab. Since we were assign to have a research of those two particular industries. I feel sad too knowing the fact that the Paper Mill was shut down since February 18, 2009, due to low demand, that’s already long. Right?!

Overall, I really had a great time. I was very tired though but because of my classmates, with our never ending chats and never ending picture takings of blooper moments especially to those sleepy heads on the bus that I was, taking pictures of the cool and nice places I’ve gone to, I enjoyed a lot. I will never forget this fun experience.

Behind the tour:

Sir Ritch

Sir Donn

Batch President 08-09, shalee

IP CLASS 08-09

THANK YOU!

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